I’ll eat in the dining room.” I didn’t want to do something that wasn’t preferable on my first day there.Īfter dinner I went straight to my bedroom. If you want, you can eat in your room,” she suggested. “It was really nice in the garden, so I kind of lost track of time.” She greeted me with a sign of relief written on her face. Once I reached the mansion, Anne was already waiting for me. After sitting there for a long time, I knew my moments of serenity had come to an end and I had to head back. An incredulous smile curved my lips when I became aware that I had completely lost my way and sense of being. There would never be a happily ever after, at least not for me. I was hit by the realization that I wasn’t innocent enough to believe in happy endings anymore. Weeks had gone by without a single thought about the story I wrote crossing my mind. The calmness of that place was so appealing that even my drive for writing returned. Foolishly, I stole a moment in which I believed that nobody could hurt me or force me to do anything I didn’t want to do.

I escaped into the world where there was nothing but heavenly peace and harmony.

It was like I’d found a hidden sanctuary where everything bad seemed to be far away-I didn’t have a mother who cared only about money, I wasn’t married to the man who terrified me, I wasn’t living in the house where even the help made fun of me. I sat on a swing chair nearby and admired that newfound piece of heaven. There was something about roses-their thorns shielded the vulnerable petals and the beauty could only be admired from afar. Roses were my favorite flowers and the ones that were the color of blood amazed me with their mysterious allure. I discovered one part that was almost hidden in the shadow of the trees, sprinkled with the greenest grass and roses of all shapes, colors and sizes. I truly enjoyed all the colors and scents of spring that overwhelmed my senses. Walking through the beautiful garden had been good for me. Everything will be fine, you’ll see.” But she didn’t know that nothing could ever be fine again. “That’s a great idea,” she encouraged me. I think I might go for that walk outside to clear my mind.”

Everything’s been quite overwhelming lately. “I’m sorry,” I apologized and tried not to look upset.

“I’m sure he’ll help me.” My voice was sprinkled with sarcasm.Īnne gazed at me with a baffled look on her face like she didn’t know what to say. I’m sure Sebastian will help you a lot as well,” she comforted me. Just give yourself a little time to learn. I will never fit in here.” I looked away again. Only a fool wouldn’t notice how much I stand out in this place. I looked away and then returned my eyes to Anne. That girl was simply displaying what everyone, including myself, was thinking.

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